`My lOve stOry* --

2008-03-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

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2008-02-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

Phew~ finally have time for my dusty bloggy. i'm so tied down with work recently, having to rush for sign ups, submission, conversion. is definitely going to drive me crazy. now that i'd got a added responsibility to train my trainee, i hardly have time to breathe. (haha, too exaggerating?) AND! my trainee is so getting on my nerve, feel like strangling him! no, i shall be patient! though there's no much blood left for me to vomit. =p

i felt lost at this point of time, having no direction in life. whether or not to continue pursuing my studies, i'm still hesitating. i'd been hearing different advices that i'm so much agree with, but i'm still yet to come out with a once and for all decision. i've a very beautiful goals, which is to become the youngest owner of appco. i dream big, will i acheive big? is still being undefined. "the biggest obstacle to wealth is fear. people are afraid to think big, but if you think small, you'll only achieve small things."

joval: you have a very good future in our company, once you decided to stay on, i'm gonna draft out a plan for you.

kester: tertiary education takes you 3years, if this 3years you were to be in this company, i really can't imagine how far you will soar.

niki: studies shall be your first priority. is not only the studying that you are involving in, is also about the learning and experiencing the part and parcel of life.

myself: i'm sure to say that my mentality is not as matured enough to start out on my own. i'm always at the loosing end, with not much exposure in the working society.

i'm not sure if i can overcome the challenges or difficulties i've met.
i'm not sure if i can produce consistence sales.
i'm not sure if i can always maintain my attitude.
i'm not sure if i can do a team building.
i'm not sure if i'm able to manage a team well.
i'm not sure if this is the career that i want.

i afraid.. the faster i climb, the faster i fall.

too much of the uncertainty overwhelmed me.
there are so many fresh grads who choose to be in this company, whereby they are all on the same track as me. that's why i don't see the reason why i need to continue my studies. moreover there are thousands and thousands diploma holders everywhere. will i be guaranteed a better job next time with a diploma cert? i doubt so..
hmm. i shall give everything the benefits of doubt. i'm gonna have a hard time sorting things out. meanwhile, just have fun and enjoy life! i'm feeling good and carefree~~

2008-01-18T08:26:00.000-08:00

SHUMEI! i miss you hell lots too, plus another GINA now.

hais! recent happening seem to be too much for me to cope. LIBRA LIBRA LIBRA, what happen to you? aren't you suppose to balance things well? G's departure had already make me so upset and yet, i broke the legal and compliance rule. damn, and i was suspended for work today. stay in the office and had to do some reflection. what worse is my in-charge also got suspended because of me! we two are going to get promoted tomorrow and yet we get ourselves into trouble! >.< i'm feeling so bad!!! i'm once again in the verge of depression!! i'd to even share my trainer with other people now! hrmp!

2008-01-12T08:30:00.000-08:00

The Bottom Line
You are even more magnetic than you thought -- and proof is coming your way today.

In Detail
You might just meet your match today, in terms of charm and sass. When you run into someone you know through a mutual friend, their flattering words and witty conversation will entertain you -- but they might end up being even more entranced by you. After all, you are even more magnetic and charming than you usually get credit for! Enjoy listening to someone laugh at your humor and take notes on the way they deliver their own zingers. You could learn a lot from them.

2008-01-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY TAILORED-MADE, CUSTOMED-MADE TO ROYSTON CHAN!

I'M SO SORRY THAT I'D CLEAR FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY, 28/12!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BUDDY BUDDY! I KNOW IS KINDA LATE, BUT IS THE THOUGHTS THAT COUNT RIGHT! HAPPY 10 YEARS FRIENDSHIP AS WELL, counting on!

2008-01-09T07:00:00.000-08:00

LIBRA

The Bottom Line
Someone you love will mess up your daily routine, but they don't mean any harm.

In Detail
Someone who is lovable (but also a bit frustrating) could make things a bit rocky for you, messing up all your plans for the day. Their inflexibility is going to wreak havoc with your schedule and totally upset your daily routine. The good news is that it won't take long for you to come up with a backup plan that will help you work around the obstacles they have inadvertently created. Celebrate the fact that you can always find a way to get yourself back on trac

100%!

i miss my netball girls so much too, be it senior or junior! i wonder if they are doing their proper training huh?! shouldn't it be intensive right now? aiyo, we dont want to always win you all by quite a fair bit leh, juniors? train hard and beat all the old birds can? competition is round the corner, buck up, don't let us down. i would probably go down and help out somewhere/someday.

till then.

2008-01-08T06:44:00.000-08:00

Circumstances shaped me. yes, I'm incapable in that sense.

i don't feel good, at all.

2008-01-04T07:02:00.000-08:00

i'm SO happy that i'd picked up sports again. YEAh ubin trip tommorow <3!

stop shaking me!!

2008-01-01T04:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!! n' FAREWELL 2007!!!

It has been a great year all this round. All thanks to everyone that has showered me with your care and concern, that makes me such a blessed person! :) i really do hope that my friendship with you guys would last, esp, my clique, my netball girls, my classmates.

my new love now: the people in my company.
my gains: DREAMWORKS ADVERTISING!
the people: GINA of cos, KESTER, joval, adrian chua, sherin, amy, rena, lesh, jocelyn, cesca, jason, boon chuan, claudio, victor, niki, adrian koh, jackson, gabriel, wei ming, faisal, jas, tian, yiling, hidir, sankar, aileen, jayson, dilun, jo, jovine, isabelle, oh i cant remember alr.

up next, new year RESOLUTION! stay tune.

2007-12-25T07:43:00.000-08:00

MERRY X'MAS!! and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I'm going to summarize everything up, cos i lost the momentum to blog. (lol, bullshit!) went to office early in the morning yesterday, bringing a very gay mood. cos i believe is going to be very fun during prime time. and yah we did. whaha. we had our laugh during xchanging of prezzie.

my life was rather fulfilling ever since i joined the company. is yet another turning point for me. i learned a lot, at the same time digested a lot. not totally regarding work, but also something that everyone will go through. is kind of a feeling which i can't find words to explain.

we were tired after work, cos we slept for less than 4hours the day before. initially wanted to go to bernard's place, but it's so so so damn far. so we drop the idea! then was colleague suggesting to play mahjong, you know, my addiction. i was rather awake already. haha. so we settled at my place for mahjong. two tables for good gracious, all squeezing inside my room. and there comes the joke. cos we need another table and mahjong tiles so that everyone can play. and we're cracking our brain to see who got available sets. so... when we are taking the lift up..

me: uncle, which floor?
uncle: 8th
me: oh okay. anyway, merry x'mas.
me: uncle, u got mahjong table at home?
(everyone were shocked to hear me saying that and they were laughing over it, including that uncle. after all the laugh..)
dilun: uncle, seriously, your house have or not?
uncle: have have.
me: lend us can, i live upstairs only, won't run away one.
uncle: okok. sure no problem.
(so we follow to uncle's house to take, haha. in the end we borrow another mahjong tiles [thanks uncle anyway]) even the mahjong paper is from another taxi uncle.
meanwhile kester called the remaining four of them who was looking for tiles.
kester: good news, good news! we use S.E.E(Smile, Eye Contact, Enthusiasm) to borrow everything already, just come over!

haha, we're soooo thick-skinned.

2007-12-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

finally, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SHU MEI, my lovely CUTIE(?) GIRLFRIEND!!!

Reality age doesn't mean mentality age. so, don't make them too distant!

and aww, i'd a bad day today, but nevertheless, i'll be powered by dreams! haha :D

2007-12-20T07:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN!

HI, HELLO NEW READER KESTER(MY WONDERFUL TRAINER)!! COME MORE OFTEN OKAY!!

haha. work today was pretty alright. except that there are so many many NQs. cramping the place like oh my god.

somehow i was bringing a very heavy heart to work today, totally mood less. but thankfully i still have so many lovely colleagues with me. i don't wanna change team please!! but kindly change the venue can, BOON LAY very far leh! and i was on cloud nine(not so exaggerated) when a prudential adviser ask me to join their team, haha, but too bad i'm still not 21years old yet. but still he pass me his name card. kester, that doesn't mean i want to join them kay! i prefer banks than for insurance. :D till then. tomorrow will be a better day!

2007-12-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

I'm so busy nowadays!!!!! mygod. I'm meeting a group of very nice people @workplace. good company, good laugh, good talk and so on (a pity that gina was not with me, cause we are still trainee and are on probation. she's sooo far away from me! different end of east line. I'm at boon lay and she's at pasir ris.. anyhow, it was still great! is always the people that makes me want to stay on for a job, not the job itself. i'm back to square one lah, commission base, difficult to earn money. bah. don't care already lah!

gosh, I'm dead beat. i just get home and you know what, i went to take cotton wool then to press out some makeup remover, but just before i want to clean my face, i realised that what i poured onto is actually nail remover. yes, I'm really tired.

just to add on, at my workplace, there are some designated clubs, i think I'm gonna be some club member soon, very soon. most probably fall into
- STONE club and
- NATO club

wonder what is NATO club, yeah, I'm telling you now, NO ACTION, TALK ONLY! haha! goodnight world!!

2007-12-13T23:23:00.000-08:00

I'm back to slacking at home. tired of hunting for jobs already. we are just repeating the cycle and that's it, not something that we want, and then back to square one! i think we ought to rest before our perseverance continues. by then, will we still get back the same thing? highly possible. since we are in search of sales and marketing field, definitely we won't get a basic and is all by commission basis. boring.

on a lighter note, we are waiting for a call from a company. hopefully we did manage to present ourself pretty well enough during the crucial 2nd interview that the company has issued. though i think i din really answer their questions fantastically when we even had given 10mins to think about it. it's still in commission basis, but choosy no more yah gina?

before i finished this entry, yeah. the company JUST called and WE were shortlisted. congrats gina, and me. cheers. monday orientation (what for?). dresscode: corporate attire(again?), bring your resume and any other cert (i bring it that day but you din collect it from me.) hopefully it's fun, let me reveal abit about what we will be doing, we are representing a bank to do events and promotions. till then. bye!!!

2007-12-05T05:27:00.000-08:00

yea. i'm still jobless. Don't laugh man you people. however, i got 10+ over job, near 20 (no kidding) on hand. gina and i were really really really picky. 10-20 over jobs are excluding interviews, appointment that we decided not to go last minute. yup, so bitchy! we probably has been blacklisted by many company. haha. we even go through very formal interview, get shortlisted, go for training, and than gave up the job. don't ask me why, i'll list out a lot of nonsensical reason. but mostly was because too far, too early, no fun etc. moreover, we were the only two that was being shortlisted among many other candidates. it was surprising because at the first look at other candidates, i turn my head to whisper to gina telling her that they are definitely on the upper UPPER hand of us. good money. not an easy job but simple. sounds contradicting? basically our job scope is to go outdoor sell a SGD3775 gadget. which is all by comission basic. another company which is similar, were to also go outdoor sell a SGD2400 gadget. same company, we had the dealer to pick us up and drove us to the destination for interview and then back again. big shot? yes we definitely is. nevertheless, our interview(s) journey are still never ending.
gina: i think we got to buy newspaper again.
me: not again?
HAHA. i got another very good job as well, i cant remember the job scope, but is an easy job. @dohby gaunt for a MNC ccmpany. $7.50/hr. 12-9pm. 5 days work week. sounds cool enough? i got all these job by our efforts actually, we went online to search, send resume. buy newspaper.. and now, is pens down time. i'm gotta watch korean drama@channelU now. is damn nice.

2007-12-02T05:28:00.000-08:00

snatched from weijie's blog. hah, don't mind right? yea i know you don't mind. lol

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

2007-12-01T08:44:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY to handsome dude NICHOLAS!!!

2007-12-01T06:14:00.000-08:00

woohoo. it's been a while since i update. well, pretty tiring hunting for jobs. is really difficult to find a job that u like, and are specialized in. of cos, and the most concerning factor, time and pay. didn't our government emphasized on five day work week? and yah. a piece of advice, don't trust too much on newspaper advert, get your doubts cleared before going down for an interview. marketier nowadays are more and more scheming. lol. i'll update more again. not in a very good blogging mood. till then.

2007-11-24T00:22:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to miss my secondary school life!!

when we were still in school, we will say things like, "i won't step into the school again after graduated (except taking result).", i definitely won't miss the school and whatsoever. haha. perhaps it is a vicious cycle.

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS, SCHOOLMATES, TEACHERS, TEAM MATES, the anthem, the smaller-than-primary-school-quadrangle, the-so-small-hall-that-can't-even-fit-a-netball-court and everything. haha.

let's take a glance at what we use to do in class during english period with our very lovely Mrs Pang.

count the "F" in the following text.

( "FINISHED FILES ARE THE RESULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTIFIC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS.." )

how many Fs do you see?
3?
NO! there are 6Fs!
WHY? ha. because the brain cannot process "OF".
anyone who counts 6Fs is a genius.

//edited. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLVIN!!

2007-11-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

HIGH UNEMPLOYMENT RATE!!!!!

haha. Siewhong told me that Miss Lim ask about how things stand for me. you know what this woman say!! she says: "she use all her time to sleep" !@#$%^&* NO LAH. you never add in play, eat, drink, daydream, watch VCDs. hah. don't worry, I'm gonna kick my ass to go and find a job already, i think I'd rest enough. (more than enough i mean) but well, see my heading? high unemployment rate eh, plus I'm so picky.

anyway, HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY LEE SENG CHOON! I'm so sorry that i can't make it to your chalet yesterday. my mother and i went to visit my second uncle who met with an accident earlier on. :( his shoulder were fracture and was quite serious. still waiting for a report that should be due on Monday. an operation might be necessary. hope everything will be fine for him. God will look after you, don't worry! he's really a very kind person.

then my third uncle offer me to work in his company for admin. initially i thought of giving it a try, but i don't know anything about admin and do not have any experience for that. I'm willing to learn but i afraid i will hinder the progress of his company. so, yup, i rejected. moreover is @ Sims drive. so farrrr! interested party may want to leave a tag, text me or something, i can help you ask. salary around $1200/mth. office hour, five days work week. hah. i think he's also afraid of hiring me, cos i told him that I'm looking for jobs that has high pay, less work. short working hour, preferably can play games the whole day from start work to end work, bla bla bla. which is, wishful thinking lah!!

i also had write an resume to a friend of mine to apply for jobs. i don't know his position in the company, but he sounds like a boss. hopefully he is. he once ask me to work when i'm still studying, he says don't know what, is a distribution type of job. the company named AceComm. i went to the website to see but i still don't know a bit of what this company is doing. so yea, we shall see. he said he will let me know again when everything is concrete. but, did i confirm with him that i'm going to work there? i don't think so! i'd yet to know the working environment, the pay, the jop scope and eveything. -.-" so boring lah.

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oh yes yes. i watched too much of 'Magicians of love" drama already. i'm starting to act as a hair sylist now. so who is the poor victim?? HAHAHA. is none other than my beloved BB!! i cut his hair!! wuahaha. he look so moody now. but hey!! is very nice ok!! he look so much handsome now. credit all goes to me. hahaha *evil*. oh. did i mention that i cut my shirt and make him a shirt instead. see, i doted on him so much. so don't ever think that i'm bullying him!! i love my bb <3.

see, your hair covering your eyes alr, still don't want cut ah?

better now right? you can see the world now. hush, don't tear.

count yourself lucky that i didn't shave it off.

2007-11-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

MONDAY

wooohoooo! prom night was a blasttt!! it was so much fun fun and fun! finally our school is generous enough, it was at york hotel. not quite bad if you are not picky. (: I'll upload the photos when i get it from her, her, him, him and perhaps them. i guess no one cares about the food, just having fun with the crowd and so on. haha. poor waitress had to portion out the food and still we're not eating it. hmm. sinful.
follow up next, was the trip down to red bar. ok. I'm gonna drop this subject, we din go in. then to marcus house, play mahjong. luckily i won some cab fare.

TUESDAY

attended my relatives wedding dinner @ Sheraton Ballroom. the food was alright but i din eat much, i think I'd enough already and I'm getting sick. wonder why i got so many wedding dinner to attend? HAH. i don't know too. there's still two coming December and February.

WEDNESDAY

went for afternoon's training, intended to run, but I'm wayyyy too lazy and i think my stamina is dropping tremendously. but nevertheless, i still joined them on court and have fun. lalalas. ohya. we have gotten our new shoes! cool! then to rivervale mall with siewhong, chewling, elly, amanda. met up with kris there. we had LJS for dinner. YES, as usual, we had lots of laughter. i definitely will feel so sad if we can't be together often. ugh!! afterall, friend comes and go. though i don't really want to accept the fact, but, it's true lah! oh man, i'm gonna tear!

till then, i'm going to write resume to apply jobs, wish me luck. goodnight people. goodnight world!!!

2007-11-16T04:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GINA CHIAM!!!

HAHA. i still haven gotten anything for prom night yet, damn, what a hassle! i'm not expecting a lot, i just want a nice pair of shoes. yes, i love shoes!!! but so sad, nice shoes always don't have my share! 1) common size. 2)size36 too small for me, size 37 too big for me. GRRR. n i don't like big shoes, yet i hate squeezing into a smaller size, cos i know my poor foot will sure suffer. LALAS. prom night on the coming monday, i definitely have to get it by tommorow alr. oh, i need to go so many place to get different things. scotts, fareast, clarke quake, cineleisure, paragon, taka, wisma... LSM, wear flats tommorrow..! perhaps meeting leave and vitasoy 2mr as well. ok, i miss them all :)

2007-11-14T03:44:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG SIEW HONG!!! WO AI NI! HAHA!

2007-11-10T00:47:00.001-08:00

ugh i'm missing my girls over at thai!! come back soonn!!

2007-11-06T06:47:00.000-08:00

finally, finally and FINALLY! it's over. and Mummy's going to give me a treat tomorrow! well, DNT paper was rather difficult today, as usual, it was very different from past year paper. the essay question was, headache. we memorised so much of the special process yet NONE came out. it's very much on applying skills. but anyway, it's over, cheers!

2007-11-05T06:23:00.000-08:00

yeah! tomorrow last paper!! science MCQs and DNT. gosh, i still haven study DNT yet, not even flip open my notes. probably have to burn midnight oil again! ugh whatever. i got this 'feng mo' again, is making me so itch and fed-up.

and oh ya, i just want to say, i love my parents!! thanks for being so caring and supportive all this well. :D alright, back to work now! people please don't burn your book aye, be environmental-friendly!

2007-11-02T08:49:00.000-07:00

hur hur, i keep looking at my account to see how many unique visitors i have. haha, quite addicted. is near the end of today, would have end it with a 26hits. so sad, so little. actually i'm very curious who read up my blog, kindly please leave a tag :) goodnight world!

2007-11-02T01:38:00.000-07:00

i was telling my friend that i wanna join nuffnang, now that shumei has joined, it makes me feel more like joining. haha. but i felt so guilty while signing up, cos i don't think i got many unique visitor other than my friends. and my blog don't really contain much substance. so i just drop the idea. but i don't know why seem like my blog is being featured on nuffnang alr. so well, i'll continue and hope to get some earnings from it, hopefully is enough for me to spend and need not go for work. then i can play netball and netball everyday. haha. what a wishful thinking!

on a lighter note, i've found a little chatbox over the net, is my favourite chic pink!. talk to me if you happen to be at my blog alright!

as for physics test today, like what kristine said, is too easy until we don't know how to do. i stared so hard at the paper to think of what's the difference between evapouration and boiling. haha. and im so regret for not concentrating on the faraday's law that i'm was holding on this morning.

yeah. o levels ending. i'm gonna have the time of the world!!!

2007-10-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

chemistry and geography paper was soooooo difficult!!! i think i got some sort of exam Alzheimer.

Chemistry..

1) i was testing my friend b4 the start of the exam. what is alkene to alcohol. obviously i know is hydration but i don't know for what hell reason i did not write it in.

2) i wrote ions(correct) in the first place but i don't know why when i recheck the paper, i change it to molecules.

3) 10marks - name a homologous group and its formula - alkane, CnH2n
name the chemical product and equation for the reaction of alkane. initially i wrote correctly for everything alr, jus because i'm not sure about its formula, i decided to change to alcohol. so i cancel everything and THOUGHT that i still have the time to do. BUT!! just after i write the first few ans.. " Students, please stop writing "
my goddd!

4) my chemistry weakest topic- mole concept, chemical analysis. yet it stand so many marks, unlike the past few years..

5) topics that im quite good at - bonding, rate of reaction, metals, acid,bases,salt never really came out.

haha! i bet past years student must be laughing away, cos really, past years paper were more managable.

Geography!

another killer paper. they repeat 2006 question, can you believe it?! global warming, sustainable development (2005) and high tech farming. ugh! i didnt really study and i cant really write. map reading was damn difficult also, wasted my energy to memorise drainage density, gradient, drainage pattern etc. they ask for features, which i never came across before.

we were expecting haze, desertification, ozone depletion, acid rain, land pollution, water pollution. unexpectedly, they came out don't know what renewable, non-renwable resources(all by thinking, not really under any chapter).

again at the very last few mins, i suddenly thought of the answer ( COS I DIN BOTHER TO FINISH READING THE QUESTION) it says, and OTHER example you have studied. so instead of talking about the renewable hydro-electric power, fish, water, i should have added in TREES as well so that i can write the whole part of deforestation down!! using trees as an eg is easier to explain since they want us to talk about increasing economic development and affluence. ahhh.. but i got no time to write any already. how saddening and demoralising. i studied so much for this two subject, leaving the rest untouch, yet it was so badly done. :(

it reminds me of justin saying that my eyes is too small to see every word clearly. aiyo. misreading of question is always fatal to students. why my exam condition is always so bad!! but luckily i'm not the only one who says it is difficult. out of ten people, 4 give up and do tourism instead, 5 struggle through. one says is easy and he/she is lying to him/herself.

2007-10-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

let me tell you guys a studying tips!!

Don't ever try to flip through your textbook to see how much more you have to study. you will eventually lose the momentum to move on! (:

2007-10-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

i'll not be blogging for the mean time yah!
i need to getaway from the computer.
i want to get myself all in to study!!!
i am studying during the commercial breaks every now and then! -.-"

god i need some brain juice.

2007-09-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

yahoo!
wasted my weekends again, practically doing nothing but to watch vcds.
haha. i'm really very lazyyy!

Now, smiles off.
I'm lagging way too much in maths and i've no idea where to start the ball rolling.
Progress of my sciences and humanities is going far too slowly for my comfort too. 3 more weeks! one girl and a long awaited big exams! shall see who conquer who! :D

ok, i desperately need to get back to my books. pfft. starting from tomorrow. hur. tomorrow and tomorrow, does that sound familiar?

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2007-09-18T03:51:00.000-07:00

hectic hectic hectic.

for my friends who had done well for prelims, well done and keep it up alright! but don't be boastful yah! you might tend to demoralise others who didn't do well. there's nothing wrong to be proud of the good results you get, but not too overrrrr please! don't be complacent too. is gonna be fatal!

for my friends who had not done well, triple million please don't be dishearten! work even harder!! control your mind, if not your mind will overruled you. "if you fail to plan, you plan to fail"- Miss Lim.

well, for me, nothing better than the usual. failing core subjects. ugh!! which sickening person invented maths!

why is there a need to always find excuses for yourself? do you know that it's so transparent to be seen.

i don't know if it is my problem or other people's problem. to always think so much, drill too much on some particular things. to change something so simple to so complex. i think it is necessary, but people think it is not. life is getting tougher. much more difficult to comprehend.

2007-09-16T00:56:00.000-07:00

i watched a cinderella story again. it still touches me a lot. but this time round, i caught an interesting phrase, "waiting for you its like waiting for rain in the drought, useless and dissapointing." for the benefit of the people who don't know what is drought, or thought drought is flooding(-> i belong to the second one. shame on a geography student, haha.) it means prolonged dry weather.

2007-09-16T00:39:00.000-07:00

sorry girls, didnt join your outing lately, no, always. just don't feel like heading out. *guilty* haha. but i'll definitely tag along when the holiday comes ok!! even if you ask me out @ 3am, i wll also come!! if i can. haha! i will kick my always nua-ing habit. i soooo miss eunice, michelle, marilyn and bernard. :( i wonder/ i wish we could work together as a team again, but i guess the chances is very slim. what kind of job can let us have a team of our own, huh? a million dollar question, can someone give me a good ans? then go take money from my secretary. :D

anyway, i came across a online shop, they sell beautiful necklaces etc, so u might want to check it out - www.hoardshoponline.com

2007-09-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

YEAHHH!! Prelims are over.. soon! haha. woohoo. went out with my mother, sister and brother today. it was wayyy cool! i'd definitely enjoyed myself today! we went to amk hub then to k-box! we were so exhilarated, dancing and fooling ard! too bad daddy can't make it to tag along. but it's ok, there's always a next time(: haha. my thirst for truth had finally unquenched. it was really k's parent shop, and my aunt was working there. what a small world! *grins*. hur hur, i was there and i saw someone familiar, not k, but i'm sure they are related cos they look so alike. i shall drop the subject before i start saying non-stop. :D hmm. i'm still contemplating if i should order contact lens from the webbys, don't think it is quite safe. anyone wants to be hero or heroine to be my guinea pig for once? haha. i'm getting abit haywire. alright. gonna watch "secrets" that was bought just now, a free poster and a mouse board of jay chou was given. ohya! i'm the last shift for tmr's practical! haha, i can come to school late and there wasn't a need for us to be quarantine, unlike gina.

goodnight worldddd!

2007-09-10T23:36:00.000-07:00

i cant believe that i actually did the quizzes in the midst of prelims. haha, when i din't even believe a tweeny bit of it.

You Are 72% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.
Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.
You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.
You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.
This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

You Are The Sun

You represent the best of life - vitality, success, and and truth.
You tend to have a strong, centered, balanced personality.
Inspiration and discovery are your fortes. You are very mentally strong.
A talented mind, you tend to excel at math, philosophy, and music.

Your fortune:

As well as you have done in the past, the future is going to be filled with more success.
A new creative project is coming your way. Feed it, and it will grow into something huge.
Great riches, recognition, prosperity, or happiness is coming your way.
And it's possible that a fantastic vacation, or a new baby, is coming sooner than you think.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

2007-09-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

2007-09-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

WOO! congrats to netball singapore for retaining its championship title again beating world ranking no.10 Trinidad&Tobago! as well as Canada, Northern Ireland and Sri Lanka (ha, conflicts country) Asian CHAMPS!!!

2007-09-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

Horoscopes

If your birthday is on the 1st day of the month
You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in life.
Your Love
You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. People who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your expression. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel.

If your birthday is on the 2nd day of the month
You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problem.
Your Love
Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. Your are a romantic and loyal lover.

If your birthday is on the 3rd day of the month
Although you are innocent and romantic but your expression often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are careful and patient.
Your Love
Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you to light when you are in love. Your confidence might lead you to the track your parents disagree.

If your birthday is on the 4th day of the month
You usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. But you often are the one who give yourself a hard time by being paranoid. People might not truly understand you but you are really nice to be around. You are cheerful and friendly.
Your Love
Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises.

If your birthday is on the 5th day of the month
Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes. Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence, you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so.
Your Love
Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party can only makes your jealousy becomes worse.

If your birthday is on the 6th day of the month
You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people find you nosy. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique. Your Love
Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple.

If your birthday is on the 7th day of the month
You are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, you are rather stubborn and self-centered. These qualities are the force behind your extreme persistence.
Your Love
You have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often progress quickly.

If your birthday is on the 8th day of the month
You have pleasant and friendly personality. People look up to your wit and imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you started, which sometimes create negative impact to people around you.
Your Love
Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time, you are lucky. You fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one. Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.

If your birthday is on the 9th day of the month
You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.
Your Love
You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

If your birthday is on the 10th day of the month
You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in implementing your imagination and share it with others. You are always well dressed.
Your Love
You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel like you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your relationship.

If your birthday is on the 11th day of the month
You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person.
Your Love
You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to hand around the one you love.

If your birthday is on the 12th day of the month
You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.
Your Love
You seem to be contented with your unrequited love because you strongly believe that you will eventually win your partner's heart. On the other hand, once you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.

If your birthday is on the 13th day of the month
You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not your style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the difficult path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around although you are sometimes too straightforward.
Your Love
Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person. Even though you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are, especially in the eyes of opposite sex.

If your birthday is on the 14th day of the month
You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around you. If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the winning team. On the other hand, you are kind and caring but above all, you care for your own benefits. Your imagination is unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across.
Your Love
You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how hard he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no getting back.

If your birthday is on the 15th day of the month
You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows.
Your Love
You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This is why you hardly win a decent relationship.

If your birthday is on the 16th day of the month
You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true.
Your Love
You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style.

If your birthday is on the 17th day of the month
You neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with others' life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are always in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People may find you childish and not very attractive in that sense.
Your Love
Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are great.You often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to choose only one.

If your birthday is on the 18th day of the month
At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around.
Your Love
You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive.

If your birthday is on the 19th day of the month
You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gain respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that you are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrong path. You are a free bird and want to lead your own life. Your Love
You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love, nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon after that, you will make up in a way that surprises others.

If your birthday is on the 20th day of the month
You are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before you make any move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take a while. You are patient, imaginative and target oriented. You value friendship more than anything else.
Your Love
You usually study your partner carefully before making any move. You never demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Your sincerity doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it brings deeply grown relationship.

If your birthday is on the 21st day of the month
You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much that it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while your dream man is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy in your heart.

If your birthday is on the 22nd day of the month
You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn. You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.
Your Love
You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time.

If your birthday is on the 23rd day of the month
You never live your life in the way others want you to. You are an independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to face with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your friends count on.
Your Love
Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can stop you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not realize it.

If your birthday is on the 24th day of the month
You are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You are gifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out.
Your Love
Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can't really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic.

If your birthday is on the 25th day of the month
You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success.
Your Love
You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young.

If your birthday is on the 26th day of the month
You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the way you choose to live. Travelling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after.
Your Love
You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one.

If your birthday is on the 27th day of the month
You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a kind loving person.
Your Love
You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be. You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.

If your birthday is on the 28th day of the month
You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before seeing any progress in love.

If your birthday is on the 29th day of the month
You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel tired of things and people around you.
Your Love
You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.

If your birthday is on the 30th day of the month
You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Although you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.
Your Love
You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

If your birthday is on the 31st day of the month
Your emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happy in the next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and understand you. You tend to take things seriously.
Your Love
You take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you decide that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress, even your partner.

is it true?? i don't really agree with it. check yours!

2007-08-31T21:12:00.000-07:00

ideas ideas where are you?? flock to me ohhhhhh pleasssssse!!!!!!!! 10 more to go!

2007-08-30T23:52:00.000-07:00

"not a class of 26, but a clique of 27" Happy teacher's day!

2007-08-15T00:58:00.000-07:00

Before I Fall In Love

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please give me a reason to believe
Say, that you're the one
That you'll always be

It's been so hard for me
To give m heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to have you say

2007-08-09T05:23:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE MISS CORAL LIM TOO! AFTER HEARING WHAT YOU'VE SAID, I'M REALLY VERY TOUCHED. THANKS FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT!! YES, SPREAD THE GOODNESS! MANY MANY LOVES!

2007-08-05T02:19:00.000-07:00

damn it man! u really sucks to the core! not that the others don't deserve to take, is that why am i not deserve to take! asshole. you always got the reason to getaway. last year is like that, this year also like that. wth, wtf! Miss C.LIM!!! they really suck suck suck!!!!

2007-07-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

as everyday events becomes a mundane activity,
i slowly find myself slipping away from everyone.
behind all those smiles, all those laughter,
have u really realised how tiring it was,
to always have to make everyone know that u've got all going right.

the always used lane, the messed up glances i used to take,
no longer felt the same.
even when texts comes in with that name appearing,
i wonder what i had to say to you in response.

i'm dumbstruck, but i've pulled myself back to a standstill. it's no longer the same anymore. even if it is the same, i'm not certain to pull on.

now who would even fit the best between the gaps of fingers?

2007-07-24T03:58:00.000-07:00

You are not a parrot nor any imitater out there. you have to learn how to have your own point of views, not people say what and it is what. it can get irritating at times.

on a lighter note, i happen to know that ms wong do blog hops on the punggolites' blog! haha, so interesting huh! HELLO MS WONG ! (: in case she happen to see mine, haha.

and i was thinking today, what word could actually describe myself?? hmmm.. still thinking in process :D

2007-07-23T07:37:00.000-07:00

today's training was ain't a good one. i can't see efforts put in, no commitment, no responsibility. and what is that? i keep repeating ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING but it seem that nothing goes into you girls head! if you all want me to throw soft balls at you in order to keep on the non-stop counting, then no way!! some even worse, knowing that its going to be a hard ball then might as well don't catch it and let it fly past your head and then pick it up. wtfish?? catwalk on court? laughing and screaming like nobody business? walk away when you're hit by a ball? or going to the basketball court to don't know do what during the breaks? try doing it in front of ms lim or ms teoh. i bet you guys will have the hell of the time. and is not as if the training were tough. is far far below average k! i don't care if you girls were to hate me. you did something wrong, you have to bear the consequences! i won't try to be nice to make you all respect me or like me. well done for people who have tried. above post is for whom you think it may be. perhaps YOU! please don't tarnish the reputation that were hard earned by the seniors over these years. sh was right, train and have fun at the same time. for me, i only feel a sense of acheivement only when i feel aches after training, because that shows that i did train, and not just train but put in my 101%.

2007-07-13T04:59:00.000-07:00

Motivation camp today was good, really good. Not much of the motivation though, but much more on sensing some perception, perhaps good or perhaps bad. Maybe you guys did not sense it, but i realise it! ok, let's talk about the good things first, oh i so love my classmates, now then i know that they are actually quite amiable people. whoosh! hmm, bad things, it was a total 'wow' for me to see some people being so self-centered. don't ask me who i' m refering , i will never gonna tell you! and some, being so anxious to gain victory. well, it's not that i don't know, sometimes i just choose to ignore. what's the point of letting others know when i know what am i doing or thinking. if every little thing i do needs an explaination, then i would rather kill myself. cause by then, i'll be living for others, not for myself. On a lighter note, i'm very happy today! i found some interesting characters. heh heh. and also, desiree offered me to work as a receptionist at mariotte! i'm feeling so gay! haha. she's the pretty receptionist working in my company earlier on. i'm glad that she's still remember me!! i miss her! but i've to very reluctantly rejected it lah. cos of the upcoming exams and all. ugh! i'm going off to finish up my... VCDs!

2007-07-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

boohoo! yesterday i went to attend my relative wedding dinner at Sentosa Shangri-la ballroom. it was so difficult to reach and the place is like at the far end of the island. o7.o7.o7. what a nice date! seem like a lot of people is getting married that day. oh is yesterday. haha. the ceremony is so grand and sweet la!! cause the groom is a army major, so there is these group of army in their No.1 Uniform, marched in with their sword, followed by the groom and the bride. so so spectacular. what's make me excited is that those army are so super handsome and young! and there is a moment whereby the emcee asked all single ladies up on stage. HAHA. cause the groom wants to match make his bunch of army friend with the ladies. i was asked to go but too bad I'm not in my legal age. ok. what a waste. hmm. no lah. play come first. =D the food is average, we just had a good time chatting. hmm.. what else?? ohya! they show us a video clip which is film earlier on that day, the traditional don't know what. aww its so sweet. it is gonna be a sweet memories that will be etched deeply in their heart. i sincerely wish that they could have a blissful marriage. =D

2007-07-03T04:20:00.000-07:00

hohoho. mummy is brewing tonic for the mens of my home!! haha!

Can superman come to my rescue? :'( i'm super duper ultra tired can.

2007-07-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

well, i wanted to do something productive, but seem like i cant. when i was about to take my portfolio out to do, my mother call me to stop DOODLING and accompany her to bedok to find her mahjong kaki, which i did yesterday! haha! i'm wasting my youth. speaking about doodling, i recall what my friend told me ( i don't think he/she want to be name here). she told me that when she take her bro asessment book and see, she saw a lot of signatures there, so his teacher wrote " bla bla bla, this is not a signature book ." Haha. OK. enough of craps, i'm gonna get ready and head out. BYE!

2007-06-24T03:10:00.001-07:00

New song - like wind.
don't be surprise that im actually so classical, not emo please. =D
My BB !bb is hairless now :( can you see from his eyes that he don't feel like it?

don't he look like a sheep?
looking for me?

Eating ice-cream. i know it kills, but once in awhile (:

2007-06-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

lesson. lesson. lesson. and MORE lesson! plus the leech-like DNT. oh. if you find yourself enjoying somehow or somewhere, you better think of me and start feeling guilty! cos i might probably get stuck in the workshop doing some sawing/filing/drilling/chiselling on the don't-know-which-to-use wood/plastics/metal. or i might be cracking my brains trying to 'explore' ideas and sketch out the diagram. haha. some sort of holiday if you say it is one. Ugh. school's like a vampire, sucking my blood dry! when is my holiday that's really called a holiday??

i seriously think that these lessons are least beneficial. like what i told Mslim after a 'lecture' from her when i skipped maths halfway. the students are like in their holiday mood. the teachers are like rushing everything through. it seem to be the teachers are doing their part telling us what we suppose to learn and we are doing our part to be present and sit there throughout.

DNT was cancelled. so i went chit-chatting with the ladies outside school office. Mr chew joined us thereafter. and so, SO, i started my non-stop complaining again. but well, i'm really glad to have him such a great vice-principal around. he's such a people person. so kind and friendly. hah! and that speaks why i got the audacity to talk to him like we're buddies. yet he still regard my "complain" as "feedback". * much appreciated*!! AND! he agrees about the alumni we propose. woohoo.! painting later on at chemistry lab then home sweet home (:

2007-05-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

i don't like people with totally no sense of originality.

2007-05-06T02:52:00.000-07:00

oh my. Mid year exam is tomorrow and i have yet to touch on anything! ugh! i guess i've cultivated this nua-ing hobby in me over the months. anyway, my com's down. so shouldn't be updating often.

2007-04-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

life hasn't been great. :(

2007-04-20T05:10:00.000-07:00

ohmy. i freaking miss Cow. :(

2007-04-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

i better blog before i get sexually harassed by Kris, again.

yesterday was fun. but at the same time a nightmare too! you really couldn't expect what Kris is up to. i hope she can consult a psychiatrist soon (:

Moody; lact of interest in things; feel weak; lack of motivation; unable to rationale

is that word 'depression' ringing in your head?

depression = these signs and symptoms lasting for at least cont. 2wks.so?

verge of depression?

i'm feeling moody, or rather, lazy? i just don't wish to head out. so i skipped sports day today. sorry cl! i don't like going somewhere else as a school, i felt restrained.

practically slacking at home the whole day. god's know when i will head out again excluding going to school. hopefully NSL next week. :) cheerios!

2007-04-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

Way Back Into Love

Lyrics: Adam Schlesinger　Music: Adam Schlesinger

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on I

've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way
I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Yesterday.

Went out early in th morny t shumei's house t finish up my geog proj. that woman is seriously, disgusting. left me alone t do proj n she went in front of her tv happily wanting t watch doraemon. -.-" she n her brother is totally alike! their seating position is the same, ugly. i will try not t go her house nxt time. if not i got t hear his bro nagging at me. =x Met up with royston n weijie for lunch. den we head t toapayoh sports hall t watch Netball Super League. i'm seriously glad that they accompanied me t watch, cos it isn't their interest. haha. elly n chewling joined us soon not long after. they say that they called me but couldn't reach. i dont know why. cos my phone seem alright, it only shows no reception. to think, its been quite long since i last seen the reception huh. :(
the matches were all so spectacular! i din't regret spending my whole day long beautiful saturday there. haha. we went for our dinner at Mad jack, shumei's 'good' recommendation. went home after that. thanks weijie and royston detouring t send me home :) and ohya! thanks for the chocolate! =D

2007-03-30T05:57:00.000-07:00

took my 2.4km test today. was totally dissapointed. i tried my very best but ended up with a timing of 12.18mins only. so far out from the past. :( that makes me drop the idea of joining the marathon MrTay offers and also the 400m for Sports Meet. haha. cos i know i will surely lose to that ABL la!
i so damn love friday. friday is always a day when i have my girls t get t play tgether like madwoman. how gd if jas were there wif us. well, they never fail t give me a good laugh. =D
today,
#1 Netball ; supposingly wanted t match with wei jie dey all again. but who knows Mskang objected it.
#2 Frisbee; it was fun, fun and fun! i want t join the ultimate' after Os. haha. i guess the people from uniform group find us irritating. cos we were laughing non-stop while they were trying t concentrate.
#3 Volleyball.
#4 basketball; we went t join the guys at court. 3girls on 2guys. we were thrashing them. haha. they say we're fast. little did we know that 1 of the guys actually called hwee yon for help. so 3on3. we still won them. but with slighter margin.
went home thereafter. reached at about 7.30pm. i afraid my leg would probably cramp tonight. hmm. mummys' bday is coming. i don't know if i should order cake online. cos is one of the recommendation from tv prog. http://www.chocabloc.biz/
ugh. my muscles are forming. i dont want. i dont like. cos once i din train, its gna bcum fats. bla bla bla. im tired. goodnights people. tmr is gna be a long long day.. cheerios. yes! i don't know what i'm talking about. anyway, happy sweet 20th t SEAN!!

2007-03-26T07:26:00.000-07:00

when i finally got th self-discipline t do my maths hmwrk,
i realised that i've left my textbook in school!
Then i realised, the damn maths tomorrow is just before recess!! that means there is a high probability that im gna b starving throughout! -.-"

Then, when i thought of starting on my dnt, my dear pillar n big bully came t tok t me in MSN! which totally makes me drop the idea of doing it.

for your info,
-> big bully is Mr Darren who always make me cry since i was primary4! if i were t see him again, th first thing i wan t do is t pinch him!
-> Dear pillar is Nicholas.

and here is our part of conversation :

Darren -> Darren
Me -> eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off.
(personal message)-> Je t'aime.
Nicholas -> *one sid.
(personal message)-> So, i've made a mistake lately.

Darren says:
i long time nv c u liao..
Darren says:
got miss me anot?
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
haha.. abit ABIT lor..
Darren says:
aiya..abit only..
Darren says:
i miss u so much leh..
Darren says:
haha
Darren says:
i tink u hav grown taller den me liao..
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
haha.. oh really. great! how tall r u?
Darren says:
174
Darren says:
u?
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
u wan a beating isit!!!!!!!!
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
162 only.. LA!!!
Darren says:
huh really
Darren says:
haha
Darren says:
i tink u grown shorter ba..
Darren says:
i guess ur boy fren mus be real tall..
Darren says:
haha
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
yup. he shld b kinda tall. but i hve yet t find. (:
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
oh! no. no. he might be quite short. yup! ( people, if you can catch wad im trying t say, haha. shldnt b a problem to my girlfriends yea?!)

Me and nick :

*one sid says:
so u je t'aime who
*one sid says:
lol
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
haha.. write write only la.. find it nice in french
*one sid says:
yup. not bad. quite nice in french word
*one sid says:
lol
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
if not nice then i wont put lor..!!
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
haha
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
so wad mistakes u made??
*one sid says:
hahaha no mistakes ah
*one sid says:
its a song
*one sid says:
i find it v nice leh.
*one sid says:
hee
*one sid says:
love u lately wan mi send u ?
*one sid says:
u ah. must concentrate on studies k
*one sid says:
cannot always play ard
*one sid says:
haha
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
hao la hao la.. dun noe how many thousand ppl tell me this alr..
eventually, the rainbow of colours will fade off. says:
wahaha

i love people around me (: esp ones that care for me.
that's all for today (: i'm gna slp. goodnights world! take care people! great day ahead.

Avoiding is appropriate if your relationship with the other party is unimportant. Avoidance is a poor strategy if you treasure your relationship.'

2007-03-19T05:52:00.000-07:00

Don't fall for me, unless you want to get hurt.
i'm serious.

2007-03-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself :
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education :
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Are you still thinking about your ex?

Here is the analysis:

You have managed to sweep away any feelings you have left for your ex. You are fully recovered and you don't dwell in anguish over the memories of your times together. You are completely and happily in love with your current boyfriend/girlfriend. Although you may occasionally mention the name of past boyfriends/girlfriend, it will simply be because it relates to what you are talking about. The present moment is what you are interested in.

2007-03-09T04:21:00.000-08:00

had training this afternoon. it was damn, hot! humid!! unbearable!!! n i dint realise that i was sunburnt only after i got home. but well, it was still alright. cos we had fun =D
some of the 'old birds left behind t play vball, connection game n 'no talking game'. haha. we locked ourselves in the store n try t make each other speak. n that goes without saying, me and elly would definitely lose! we're sorelosers t do th forfeit =x wahaha!

today is the official last training we had. :(

"As the last leaf falls
As the last bird sings
As I walk away with a heavy heart
As I walk away with sorrow and a heart that cries
I leave with hope, with dreams and most impt
With love"

The past few four years which I shared with each and every one of you girls have been something that I will never forget and something which shall remain embedded deep within my memory forever. You girls weren't just team mates to me, you girls were family. For the times that I shared with all of you, the tears, the laughter, through highs and lows, I thank you all. Each and every one of you are amazing individuals and I know you all share the common vision and dream. The vision to win, the vision to excel, the vision to allow each and every one of you girls to realise your full potential and be the best you can be. I will always be with you all in spirit, sharing that dream with you although I may not be there to share the hard training with you all. And I want to encourage you all to carry on, to press on, to strive to achieve excellence, to strive to achieve your best, to strive towards the common dream. You have all inspired me to be a better person, to work for what I really want, to be a do-er and not jus a thinker. Do your best, don't let go. If u fall down, pick yourself up. I love each and everyone of you girls. For each and everyone of you, I leave a note, I leave an appreciation, I leave my love. words alone cannot express how much u have impacted my life and words alone cannot express how much u mean to me. i wish u all the best in everything u do and may u be blessed.

2007-02-21T05:11:00.001-08:00

"Your emotions are very important to you and you are not interested in the material side of life at all. Although you are sociable and make friends easily, you also need plenty of peaceful time on your own and you sometimes lie to yourself rather than face the harsh realities of the real world. When things get tough you will disappear into your own fantasy world. You have a great ability to transform ideas into something others can easily understand and appreciate. Because you are always forgiving and adjust to what others need, you do best with a strong partner who is supportive and understanding. But you are difficult to understand even for yourself because of your changing moods and chameleon-like character."

2007-02-11T02:09:00.000-08:00

Everything's like so. freaking contradicting.

I don't really know how to start this post going about. actually i wanted to type about something else, but maybe, i'll just start it off like any other usual posts in my blog with my daily activities.

went to work yesterday. and i saw k frequently. thats great:) shopping after work with eunice, michelle n shumei. aw. i'm so so so broke now, all thanks to the rashness of giving my mum n bro a quarter of my pay and the overdose shopping i've done :( bought 10+ over tops without buying any bottom. no wonder my mum was so fed up. i just couldn't control my spent luh. and i'm too addicted to mango and mphosis.
shopping today with mummy, wanted to hunt for bottom, but i bought tops again.

3 more days and it will be my lovely N70 1 year old birthday. and so, i decided to change his look. =D bought a original black casing. it's cool. but abit boyish. i wanted th silver one but ther isnt any more stocks.

she got something to say...
hmm. now. finally i think i know what exactly i wna this post to be. eyy, simply, i know what i feel like blogging about.

first of all, bloody hell shit, my life is going back tape. it's like, rewinding. with freaking stuffs stepping in. i think i should really lock and chain up the door to my life. so that there will be no more people entering and leaving their sticky footsteps all around. hello? you don't belong here. but hey, i'm so not gonna be affect by this. what's the point you see? the one getting hurt and being labelled as emo would eventually be ourselves, no one else. so freak if you think this people would give a damn to what you're feeling, cause, they simply hecked it.
2ndly, i felt that you had made the wrong choice into telling others what had happened. if you didnt tell anyone about it, no one else would know and no one else would be hurt by it. so it's time to, shut up. see it, feel it, swallow it down. digest it all by youself. one is better than two.
3rdly, this is meant for someone to read. i mean, if by chance you're clicking randomly and typing blindly on your keyboard and you happened to be here, then well, this is for you. okay. stop being so immature to be ranting around. it makes you look really stupid. what's the point of emphasizing that you are right and we're wrong. if you think that we don't have the quality of sportmanship, then, neither do you have. kindly just shut your gap! and! what's the point of arguing since we're like just, acquaintance? i've tried talking nicely and wanted to stop th argument, so, don't say me uncouth! save your energy up and pay more attention during social studies lesson. cause you seriously lack of understanding and interpretating skills. don't talk so much bullshit if you're ain't the main player.! (the person will know who i am refering to.) and i think she don't fit to be in the team, cause her team mates is way better than her.

2007-02-07T03:48:00.000-08:00

i'm not capable of expressing my feelings verbally, so, i shall pen down my thoughts here ya.

v day is nearing, and all of a sudden, i feel empty. shumei asked me a question which got me stucked. i've been thinking it through over and over again, finally, i've sorted all out.

i missed you a lil too much,
because of you,
i found the courage to face problems myself,
and i finally realised what you've always been telling me,
etched in everyone's hearts, there's always a lil dark side.
after so long, it's still kept in my memory.

its not words, not faults, not misunderstandings,
but the failure to appreciate and understand me,
that hurts me most,
yet u seem ignorant.
after all these time,
i finally felt, this overwhelming feeling again.

i could feign ignorance,
i could play a game of hearts,
but i chose neither,
i've chosen to seclude,
i've made my stand to shut out,
all thats left behind.

you were actually the cause and the source.
but you were th bits and pieces along th way.
you were supposed to make me smile,
yet of all you were the one who made me tear.
it shall never be this way again.

because of you, i let the best go.
because of you, i had t learn th hard way.
and it hurts all 'over again.
once bitten twice shy.
i dont wanna unveil th future.
i only wanna reside in th present.
th future is too much,
too much for me t apprehend.

when i was with you..

th constant fears,

th awkward silence,
th glistering droplets,
th monetary whispers,
th self-made up reveries,
th neverending untold truth,
th flashbacks of th past mistakes,
th mirrors of a contemplated future,
th decision that proved us both wrong.

that i was never strong to begin with.
and its not easy to be me.
the path chosen, decision made,
i'll carry them myself.

till then, i bid you goodbye...

Everyone else know where roads seem to be moving forward and yet i seem to be stuck in th past. like a frozen clock. i shall put it a stop. and look forward to a better life. afterall, my world doesn't requires you anymore.

2007-01-30T21:04:00.000-08:00

Daisy Tan Netball Carnival 2007

Venue: Kallang Netball Centre

Date: 07 Jan to 04 Feb 2007

Organiser: Netball Singapore

Final Results
Tertiary
1st: Raffles Junior College Team B
2nd: Raffles Junior College Team A
3rd: Pioneer Junior College
4th: Millennia Institute

Schools
1st: Anderson Secondary School
2nd: Raffles Girls School
3rd: Punggol Secondary School
4th: St. Nicholas' Girls

Clubs (Women)
1st: Sneakers Adidas Ace
2nd: Nike Air
3rd: Blaze
4th: XNIJ

Clubs (Mixed)
1st: Bedok CSC Mixed
2nd: Zenith Ace
3rd: Zenith Alpha
4th: SingTel

2007-01-29T06:57:00.000-08:00

the fights we had, previously, recently, repeatedly,
will always be a memory to linger in the heart.
the time spent yesterday, today and tomorrow,
will always hold that significance.
we could hold out the last time,
we will definitely pass through this time round.
the past will always be a part of the future. and you girls, will always be a part of me.

-awaiting the departure, longing the arrival.

the tears;
sweat;
injuries;
humiliation;
hatred;
all brought us to be one.
and no matter how badly we fared, we are still going to be that whole.
it's never hard to do it, as long as you believe, if you want it, you got it. because right from the start, you determine whether you want to be a loser, or a winner.

:( i'm sick. i have a blocked nose, fever, and sorethroat, how nice. my nose is perpetually draining my house of tissues. the waking up and tuning in with a blocked pipe is driving me nuts. i guess i need a break from everything. well, i've missed two days of lesson.

after a whole day of being emotionally drained,
how i wish you were just beside me.
nothing beats your presence you see.

2007-01-22T04:53:00.000-08:00

i'm kinda exhausted. don't worry, not mentally exactly, physically more like it. training is still hanging on four times per week. nuts but there's nothing i could do. i think i would just bear with all the naggings and so.

i hurt my spinal cord during trg today. an internal one. i was like boasting earlier on that i have never get serious injuries for d past 4years. -.- today trg was still alright. d usual run, sprint, drills, court, sit-ups, push-ups n stuff.

ugh. hectic week.

today. lesson till 3.30pm. training 3.30 - 6.30pm.
tuesday. lesson till 3.30pm.
wednesday. lesson till 2pm. training 3.30-6.30pm.
thursday. lesson till 3.30pm. dnt extra lesson on later part.
friday. lesson till 12.30. nanyang poly trip 2-6.30pm. gog out til d next morny.
saturday. training 8.30-12pm, bbq' at ard 2pm to late night.
sunday. round 2 daisy tan' carnival morny-evening.
monday. north zone tournament with NV.

i still hv to re-make my stupid ezlink card.

i miss my eunice. ): cant find some time to go out with her. well, i guess we got alot of things to catch up. date me alright!

2007-01-20T05:25:00.000-08:00

wad a hectic day!

woke up early in d morny for my north zone competition match at SingaporeSportsSchool. i lost my ezlink card when im on d way dere. guess it drops when im dozing on d bus! ugh! muz blame Mummy for not allowing me to go out ytd nite to woodlands. if not i wld hv go straight to sport school w/o taking d bus n lose my ezlink card. haha. im like forever blaming others =x

checked. reported. and there goes my card. was quite depressing when im in d bus with d girls to sports school. but baobei msged me sth which make mi, happy!

well, due to d bad weather ytd. our match w Fu Chun sec is postponed to today. (im blaming d organizer too!) we played till 2nd quarter ytd n it started raining.. Boo! we was winning. 37-1. luckily we dun hv to rematch. starting frm 30-1, third quarters, we ended d match wif a beautifully 53-4. well done girls! *3cheers* its a gd start yah. nxt match wif North Vista shall b a tough fight. is either we can make it to d 2nd round, or them. - Nxt Monday game, n we shall challenge again on Sun at DaisyTan' Carnival.
don't. don't! don't b pessimistic! we cant lose in our mentality in d first place. (:

outing w LSM later on. im officially broke. try not to ask me out k! ha. i bought 3tops for $120. n stuffs for ard $40. hee. we went 2try pepper lunch. is my 2nd time vistg dere. is fun! ohya! gotta eat bread n biscuit for d rest of d month.

im gna bath. comfy bed, im coming!

2007-01-17T04:08:00.000-08:00

i just cant pay attention today! cos i was playing my gameboy ytd nite. haha.

first lesson, english. damn it. my teacher is not a teacher. in stead, she is a hypotist! i feel so much like slpg! but whenever i put my head down, she will bang on d table!

next, physics. was suppose to do practical. but me n shumei din even bother to take out d apparatus! hence, i started using d long ruler to disturb people. haha. dey dun dare to stand up then. haha.. after a while Mr.cheong col me n shumei to go to the corner n he started bla bla bla bla~~ den me n shumei guai guai go do d practical.

recess. feelg much energetic.

mother tongue. do d stupid comprehension. started feeling bored again.

social studies. do workbook for a while and started doodling.

geo. slept for d whole period.

maths. listen w/o taking down.

chem. do work for a while.

traing after that. ugh! tough one. we train till 7pm.

boo! not in d mood to cont'd. bye world!

2007-01-16T04:01:00.000-08:00

skipped school ytd and im late for school today.

i reached school at 8.10am. n i was being counselled by d dm for 10mins. he teaches me how 2 wake up early, n how to plan my trip to school. -.-" wdh. waste my time.

today is sucha weird day. andy kip calling my name n wink to me. while nicholas n frens kip calling me 'chen sao'.

= kinda pissed off over some issues today. but i dun wna elaborate. u noe, i noe.

training today was fine. more to come tmr. gna train til 7pm. hopefully dey wun lock us in school ehs.! Taoyan! training on Saturday too! oh my, dats my precious day. someone pls kill me.

hv a safe night people, hv a pleasant week friend.

2007-01-13T23:28:00.000-08:00

ohya! one more impt thing that i forget to say.

we're 3rd. so we could proceed to d 2nd round. Cheers!

2007-01-13T23:17:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY.

DAISY TAN' NETBALL CARNIVAL

i reached school at 9am ytd. which supposingly to be at 9.30am. haha. this is something to b proud of.

it was my baobei bday anyw. so we bought her a cake to celebrate. HAPPY SWEET 16 BAOBEI! I LOVE YOU! lol. nxt tym bring you go watch NC16 (:

so after that we headed to kallang macdonald to eat first b4 going to d netball centre. d weather was good. no raining no sun. but it drizzles once we started our warm-up.

1st match with East Spring Sec.

we was playing half court when d announcer announced that the game will start in 10secs. so we got no choice but to get into d court quickly w/o even restg. sort of breathless then. it started raining heavily. the flow was slow. but we manage to take lead all d way. n we won 6-2. but during d 2nd half our dear Goal Defender fall n sprain her ankle. so she cldnt continue playing further. :(

2nd match with Commonwealth Sec.

its a close fight. we wld hv won. if only i manage to put in d crucial shot. damn it. the ball went in n came out. wdh. 5-4. we lost.

3rd match with Hillgrove.
we won 11-4. baobei was annoyed when i was chatting happily w my defender. haha.

4th match with North Vista.

aww. they were all so big size man. i guess our mentality has alr lost to them b4 we even started to play. wad sia. dey were the zonial top 4 last year. and sad to say. our lots for this year North Zone competition is v v bad! we have gotten North Vista n Singapore Sports School :( that was bad. damn bad! we lost anyw. 11-7.

5th match with bedokview.

they were leadg in d first place but we manage to catch up. we won 11-7.

6th match with Cresent girls.

we won 12-4.

7th match with Hwa Chong International.

they were so irritating! keep using underhand means to get the ball. luckily our umpire is sharp enuf. n we won 12-2. my leg cramped a few secs after i did a great split. haha.

accuracy was good. attempted quite a no. of long shots, n mostly went in. if only i could shoot like this last time.
i dont feel any pressure and stress now. isit bcos d ppl in my team has changed? or isit dat iv gained much confident?

headed to town w baobei. n we go separate ways after walking a few rounds. she's so sweet!

meet up w Eunice, Michelle n Bernard for late dinner at Seoul garden. it was fun n i miss them so much. Cabbed home w Eunice. we were too tired to take train. it was always so good after chatting w her.

TODAY.

woke up early to take d stupid bursary award. waited for so long la. so happy to see Mei Xuan there. i miss her alot too.. but i was way too far behind to approach her.. so... i texted her! " tie up ur hair la. hahaha". saw Grace n Kai Wen dere oso. Grace kip turning back to me n smile.. hahaha.. n saw that stupid Boon Gwee there.. he was so noisy w his fren. im so not willing to share an umbrella home w him, but, haha.. he's v pity la.

its raining n im gog out soon. curse d weather, dumb dumb.
ugh~ i din even touch my dnt at all. how ehs?

my muscles are aching all over and i felt like some, retarded person with retarded actions. cause im like walking like a duck, doing things slower than usual and complaining even when im just carrying my small handbag. im not girlish, just that, the ache is unbearable! :( more to come. theres traing, competition n carnival. at the rate im going, i wonder when the ache will subside. never i doubt.

and once, i told the hidden story again.
maybe its not a secret anymore.
everytimes it brings up sweet.
yet bitter memories.

doubts about the actions
doutbs about the truth,
and doubts about people.
tell me, what is reliable?

2007-01-11T06:16:00.000-08:00

dnt sucks big time.

2007-01-10T00:29:00.000-08:00

take my BMI today. i grow taller! (: n dats bcos i tip toe! 163cm!

haha.. played volleyball with d malay guys n ended up playg soccer. after which joined royston dey all for basketball.. yeah! we won! haha. i love PE!

ohya. haha! i wont make jolvin embarrass by saying that he fall down today! =x wahaha... we was laughing n laughing w/o giving him a helping hand! lol..

i wna slp now. bye world!

2007-01-09T03:45:00.001-08:00

late. again.

went to catch "bloody diamond" on 9.45pm at causeway point ytd night. n dat speaks y im late today. reach hm at 3am. n was drench -.-" well, d show was alright.

training after school today. it was ok. ha! i psycho d security guard shu shu today to skip my detention. yeah! im so clever ! hee. so, I HAVE COMPLETED MY DETENTION !

i wna leave home. now.

i apologise for my attitude on court today.

2007-01-08T02:15:00.000-08:00

im late for school. again. this time round i got to serve detention. 4hours la! grr! ugh! n i dunno wad d hell d school is doing. i reach school at 8am and they called my house at 12pm! telling my mother that i didnt attend school! wth!

ugh! no mood to blog further. i hate it when you tok abt dat lalalas!

2007-01-04T03:34:00.000-08:00

i got my jersey today (: it was.. cool!

today trg was.. disastrous? :( did so much of conditioning. ugh! my muscles r so tight now. n im waiting 2suffer frm d cramps.. nvm, i wna have abs!

d annual DaisyTan' carnival is here again, yeah! if im not wrong, we're in 3rd/4th position for the U16 catergory, two years back. n we din participate last yr.
fixture is out today. so eastspring, bedokview, cresentgirls, northvista,commonwealth,hillgrove n hwachong ladies! c u all on nxt sat at kallang! showcase ur best alright! top2 to proceed to d second round.

its gna b a new challenge for me, cos i can no longer play with my beloved pioneer batch of girls. but, do come n support us k! kinda miss d days when we r on court. d bond we shared, d perseverance we had, n d endurance to soar, of cos, d plentiful fun n laughter too.
im so hot-tempered when u guys r not ard.
i'll scream, i'll show attitude.

we cant go further with just d 4 of us. u noe wad im tryg to say.. rite?

one last thing, my netb shoe is runng out of friction alr. anyone wans to buy me a pair of NETBURNER?

2007-01-03T04:02:00.000-08:00

school reopen today. damn boring.
im late. and i mean real late. yup! as usual la.

first of all, i need to whine a little.

my whole body is aching after a tough training today;
well, is not tough actually, is just that i haven't been training for long =x but! but! but! its rather worth it! cos i get to c all my maties once again! esp my baobei. finally tagging back with her! guess u've had been missing me truckloads bah! ha! my precious siewhong n bday girl mabel came back too! all i wan to say is, : "u guys nth better to do isit?". if i were u, i wldnt have step in d skul once again, xcept takg d result! ): there's training tomorrow. how tiring it can be. gna take our competition jersey. but i dunno whether if there's my share. i was like MIA for three months alr. but well, i wasnt really care abt it. since im so irresponsible for d past few month. its unfair to others if i get into d team yah! mayb i can be d scorer or time keeper? haha=D

something great abt me today! ha. i was texting while running. since our coach is not around.. we shld... slack alittle yea?

yeah! 'O'lvl has been brought forward. for two weeks i suppose? woohoo~ d news is sth dat motivates me..

i miss you guys so much... :(

2007-01-01T23:44:00.000-08:00

OK. i know i'm a little late, but still, Happy New Year.
A brand new year depicts a brand new year for many.

oh well. cheers to 2007! the first date with you, was a nice date.

2007-01-01T01:59:00.000-08:00

an answer is not what i needed,
i just want an assurance.
a certainty that i didnt make the wrong decision.
or perhaps its time for me to close the open door,
and let you stay out of my life?

Thanks for the lovely night (:

2006-12-30T06:32:00.000-08:00

Kyle Kevin Bryan Shao wei. d 4handsome dude. u can stop smoking for d meanwhile alr.

Bernard Naresh Suresh Eunice Chanel Eden Gerald Geraldine Hui qi Jessica Jk Pk Katherine Kok hwa Marilynn Michelle Yi qin Yu feng Sean tay Sean seah Wei zhen Shi li Charles Nell Vanessa Siong jun Kim Josephine. we will gonna b the no.1 team ever!

Jasmine Desiree Rachel. im glad dat i wun get to c u as often.

Pauline Jerry Simon Mandl Jimmy Ivan Nicholas Vincent Wilfred Pheobe. i'll always b ur part timer. Jerry n Simon, dun 4get wad u all promised me alright! dote me!! anybody wans any flesh imp stuff? go Heeren!

Brandy, Matthais. Raymond. Andy. c u all ard. lucks 4ur studies.

cool! above are my holiday gains. =D

2006-12-28T06:56:00.000-08:00

i've learnt a lot of things this year, and the main lesson learnt, is to keep up with reality.

a explaination is needed,
a reason is demanded,
and a guilt should be given,
as it spells hatred and revenge beneath it.

so tired of being doubted. so tired of getting blamed. so tired of being wrong. so tired of being misunderstood. so tired of trying to be the one you want me to be. so tired of speaking to you. so tired of explaining myself. so tired of being labelled. so tired of everything.

call me materialistic. call me demanding. call me rebellious. call me wild. call me rude. call me useless. but do you even know me?

dont label me. one day when i soar. i will soar so fast, so high. you'll never be able to bring me back. one day when i leave. i will leave so fast that you wont even get a chance to say goodbye.

i'm this close to breaking down. this close to giving up.

our meetings was unexpected and yet unwanted.
i'm not a clown, nor a toy. or even a war trophies. it's just that situation are making things look funny, or perhaps making me look funny.

2006-12-04T01:19:00.000-08:00

sorry girls 4nt attendg trg. i gt my difficulties too. so i hope u all will understand. c u all soon on court!

2006-11-26T07:13:00.000-08:00

im not me anymore, maybe not for now.
it's just so hard to smile,
especially from the heart.
it aches, everyday and now.

just drown me in memories of happiness,
and rescue me from overflowing suspension.
2 years, 15 days,it just seem so long, so far.

your arms are my pillars,
your smiles are my encouragement.
without them,i might just crumble and fall.
i might, just.. you know?

2006-10-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

haven been studying for my last paper, though i wanted to do so.

my mind is in a whirl. was being preoccupied by the -about2arrival' thing.

really hope dat it wun b a devastatg one. everyone pray hard 4me yah? will u?

god bless me!

if it is meant for me.
just tell me straight.
please don't let it see it myself.
it stabs. it hurts. it kills.
that's a fatal stab.

when everything falls in place, everything stops.

2006-09-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

so much of giving in and taking the first step.
so much of hurting and cheating myself instead.
eventually, no answers were given,
neither do i want to hear it again.

i said i won't do it for the second time. but i did it again.

2006-09-16T04:27:00.001-07:00

How i wish not to be that girl anymore.

how i wish i was a psychiatrist,then i could figure out what your mind is thinking,
or how your heart is feeling.
how i wish i'm your shadow,then i could always be there,
regardless how hard it is to bear.
how i wish i am ignorant,
then i could take a step down,
pretending that this isn't happening.
my wish list is getting longer each day
it doesn't matter if they are fulfiled,
all i wish for is that:"if you just paused and look around,someone you might have left behind."

*would you grant this little wish of mine?*

Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart?

Gotta pick myself up, where do I start - The Veronicas.

2006-09-09T07:21:00.000-07:00

realised that i've not been blogging today. not busy, just lazy. and life isn't that exciting for the past few days. no hot news? nothing new. xcept for e outing wif lsm n dear dear.=)

today was a house keepg day. its so tiring can! my bro n sis was smart enuf to went out!

*grrs*

... left me alone to handle all the chores.

dear was sick. no mood to blog further!

oh a word to all. cherish what you have now. do not wait till it's gone then you realise its importance. by then, it'll be too late? what's the point of being regretful or saying sorry then? hate to hear a word of sorry when it's already meaningless. - *not for my case, people!

2006-09-06T08:18:00.002-07:00

back frm my 2nd home! haha.. which is dear's house. he look so tired luh. -heartache. so i was considerate enuf to let him slp.. w/o taking my hello kitty tattoo out. haha.. if u catch wad i mean!

help him massage for quite long.. *hand pain* haha.. so he cook alot of things for me to eat. den went downstairs to buy tibits, dessert n durian.. wahaha=) our fave!

hehe. dear show me alot of pics n videos which dey had taken during their trip. haha. dat daniel n owen! lols.. like to act so much. hugging n wadever! haha. dey r so cute la. haha. dear bought me a earring! cos he says i every time lost my earring de. ha! i'll treasure it de. dun worry. thks baby!

cabbed home myself, dear wants to go MOS. moreover his bike is nt with him. zf said dat when he rides dear bike, e gear chain breaks. and e bike was being towed away for repairg. hmm.. hope dat zf is fine.

then dear msged me: dear. sorry dat i cant send u hm. u take care k. reach hm msg me.. rmb not to look outside. merz cab look outside will v giddy de.

hehe. so sweet! loves!

the driver insist me to tke e receipt. haha. he ask me to claim frm my bf.. lol.

2006-09-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

YEAH!!! DEAR DEAR IS BACCKKKK!!!!!! WOOHOO~~~~

2006-09-04T04:45:00.000-07:00

Chinese paper today was alright. Manageable.

Haiz... when will darling be back! MISS! MISS! MISS!

indeed, when dear is nt ard, i felt sth is missing, its so empty...

moodless to study. im tired! though i haf a nap just now.. it just makes me more tired. well. haha.. Diplomacy n deterrence ltr! Countries divided tmr! SET!

i saw the nike merge watch! but the colour i wan din appears.. boss say nid to order...
$169 after 15% discount.. quite worthwhile... hmm.. any subsidies people?

2006-09-03T02:24:00.000-07:00

Argh!!!! dear dear went to malaysia with friends.. they gonna go there for three days.. Arghhh!!! =( i miss him so much ah!!! kip thinking of him...

time no longer flies... it strolls..

dear is not ard.. i dun hav the mood to study, haha.. nobody nag wad!! lol... but i still rmb....

Dear: u ah, i not ard u oso muz study hor! though i cnnt monitor u, but i'll still noe de.. my soul will be wif u!! so, dun try to bluff me hor!

Me: Orhh... lorr..

haha.. i still haven study yet. currently at my uncle's place using his lappy. hmm.. shall do it when i reach hm..

can anyone tel me wad to do? if i got to study all the chapter for social studies, i surely cnnt memorise de.. so, shall i take a risk to study abt two chapters? im intending to do so bah.. so god bless me heh!

ha! pizza hut, cheesy bites for dinner ltr! i've been longing to try.. cos i love cheeseeee!! haha..

: dear ah dear.. u must take care k.. missing u loads! hehe.. i'll be good.

HAPPY ONE year + ONE month ANNIVERSARY!!!

HAPPY THIRTEEN months ANNIVERSARY!!!

HAPPY 1.1 year ANNIVERSARY!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

2006-09-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

i bet on 4d today, whahaha, but din strike la... 3805. hmm.. tmr will open de.. if not i waste 6dollars for dat. lol.. haiz.. still cant find the nike merge watch..

2006-09-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

went out with mummy n sis today. Enjoyed! reached hm at the late afternoon. slp awhile. wanted to study. but not in the correct mood.=x shall do it tmr!

i miss dear!!!! another 5more days to our meeting.. grrs! damn it 'n' level.

Dear, Smooches! loves! Muackkkk<3

2006-08-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

I want to buy NIKE MERGE ANALOGUE WATCH ( black n red )!!!!!! its so damn nice!! i dun care! buying for sure! i tell dear that i want to buy but dunno where to find.. surprisingly he tel me dat a few days ago he col his friend to buy at Thailand.. cos is cheaper.. Argh!!! i miss it. dear only bought for himself! haiz... where can i find it? and when can i find it... i WANT i WANT!!! i try finding online but dun haf.. SAD=( quite ex too=(..

2006-08-28T07:00:00.000-07:00

im sooo hungry now! who's gonna cook for me?!! daddy says he will cook for me at ten. cooking needs auspicious time? im lazy to cook.. shall wait den..

'N' level is coming in a week time n i still dun have the mood to study. all i think of is wad to do and how to njoy after n level.. how?